The day was like any other day. We had breakfast together and today mom will visit us again and the process of feeling uncomfortable thinking about the kind of look she gives a us and the way she potrays herself among us being authoritative about the our behaviour here started again. So, we played a lot and kept ourselves entertained till her arrival. As she reached home the atmosphere changed suddenly.
It reminds me of her typical stereotype fear of ourselves(me and brother) getting close to them(Jyothi and her sister) as she didn't like aunty (Her mom) and always told about how she treated her at time she was new to my grand pa's place and she always hated her. She also told about m y aunt's crush, Gopi uncle(elderbrother of my mom) and how she urged my mom to convince my uncle to marry her and all such stuff which I first used to listen with a feel of empathy towards mom. But, after listening to it so many times, I used to guess what she would say next. In the years to come the frequency of these talks increased to an unimaginable levels.
It was like she used to watch over us and it was difficult to enjoy in such a weird atmosphere. But anyway we managed ourselves to have fun time together. The other day we were just returning from a long play at my aunt(Ganga)'s place to uncle's house. It was like I and Jyothi were left behind in the walk. We started a talk, pretty different from the conversations we used to have before. It was like a discussion about the crushes we had till now. She said that she had no crushes till now, but shared her experiences of being proposed by her classmates that time. I was shocked at the way the students think at her age she was in her eight class. Then she asked about mine.
I think I was the one who started this way of conversation as I felt I must express my liking towards her. This unusual kind attraction towards her started at Teja's house. It started to grow in me more and more with time. And in Maamuduru I was overwhelmed by this feeling. I started being possessive and get upset when she used to talk more with my brother who is just months older than her. I thought was behaving weirdly but it was not in my control. I always wanted her too be on my side in all games and just didnt bear if she changes her team to my brother's side in all the games we played.
Coming to our talk on crushes it was my turn to tell the list. I did the most foolish thing while telling my crushes. I forgot to tell about Shalini one of the girls of B section of my year. She was quite interesting to me a sort of crush due to the fact that she looks like Jyothi(at least those times). So, I mentioned her name first and then mentioned about Jyothi. I also appreciated her behaviour and I liked her the most. But Jyothi said, " But your first crush is Shalini, I am the second one". Then I was ...ooops wrong message conveyed. So, I corrected my self saying that I liked Shalini because she looked like Jyothi. Although, she was not so convinced, I could see that she also liked me.
It reminds me of her typical stereotype fear of ourselves(me and brother) getting close to them(Jyothi and her sister) as she didn't like aunty (Her mom) and always told about how she treated her at time she was new to my grand pa's place and she always hated her. She also told about m y aunt's crush, Gopi uncle(elderbrother of my mom) and how she urged my mom to convince my uncle to marry her and all such stuff which I first used to listen with a feel of empathy towards mom. But, after listening to it so many times, I used to guess what she would say next. In the years to come the frequency of these talks increased to an unimaginable levels.
It was like she used to watch over us and it was difficult to enjoy in such a weird atmosphere. But anyway we managed ourselves to have fun time together. The other day we were just returning from a long play at my aunt(Ganga)'s place to uncle's house. It was like I and Jyothi were left behind in the walk. We started a talk, pretty different from the conversations we used to have before. It was like a discussion about the crushes we had till now. She said that she had no crushes till now, but shared her experiences of being proposed by her classmates that time. I was shocked at the way the students think at her age she was in her eight class. Then she asked about mine.
I think I was the one who started this way of conversation as I felt I must express my liking towards her. This unusual kind attraction towards her started at Teja's house. It started to grow in me more and more with time. And in Maamuduru I was overwhelmed by this feeling. I started being possessive and get upset when she used to talk more with my brother who is just months older than her. I thought was behaving weirdly but it was not in my control. I always wanted her too be on my side in all games and just didnt bear if she changes her team to my brother's side in all the games we played.
Coming to our talk on crushes it was my turn to tell the list. I did the most foolish thing while telling my crushes. I forgot to tell about Shalini one of the girls of B section of my year. She was quite interesting to me a sort of crush due to the fact that she looks like Jyothi(at least those times). So, I mentioned her name first and then mentioned about Jyothi. I also appreciated her behaviour and I liked her the most. But Jyothi said, " But your first crush is Shalini, I am the second one". Then I was ...ooops wrong message conveyed. So, I corrected my self saying that I liked Shalini because she looked like Jyothi. Although, she was not so convinced, I could see that she also liked me.
