Sunday, December 4, 2011

The Moments of Love - 7. An entirely new feeling..!!

It was another bright day and I had many expectations regarding yesterday's discussion. Although it was rare that grand ma visited this village, I took it to be a casual visit. But it had left a very painfulmark on my heart. We were playing as usual on the green ground which surrounded the big lake in our village and I was very happy that I expressed something which I didnt plan but happened. Then we were on our way to Srinu Babai's house and had fun all the way too. Then as we reached, Grand Ma asked Jyothi and Jyoshna about where she can find their other clothes other than those which she already packed for them. I was startled as I didnt expect this and asked Gand Ma why she is in such a hurry. She in reply said," She had to be taken to doctor as she had some infection on her cheek.Her appointment was fixed for today." I tried to convince Grand Ma to stay for atleast one more day, although I knew that it was invain. Jyothi a ture follower of her Gand Ma's words (those times atleast) started packing her clothes even though she didnt like it. I was walking beside her pleading her to stay and I was doing it as though my life depended on it. I was surprised to see my self but couldn't help and kept pleading her. But she said only onething all the time.... " Sorry bobby ...!!! Vellali bobby.. Ardham Chesuko... !!! (Sorry Bobbyy... Understand me .. I have to go)".

Saturday, October 9, 2010

The Moments of Love - 6. Flirting for the first time.... :)

The day was like any other day. We had breakfast together and today mom will visit us again and the process of feeling uncomfortable thinking about the kind of look she gives a us and the way she potrays herself among us being authoritative about the our behaviour here started again. So, we played a lot and kept ourselves entertained till her arrival. As she reached home the atmosphere changed suddenly.   
          It reminds me of her typical stereotype fear of ourselves(me and brother) getting close to them(Jyothi and her sister) as she didn't like aunty (Her mom) and always told about how she treated her at time she was new to my grand pa's place and she always hated her. She also told about m y aunt's crush, Gopi uncle(elderbrother of my mom) and how she urged my mom to convince my uncle to marry her and all such stuff which I first used to listen with a feel of empathy towards mom. But, after listening to it so many times, I used to guess what she would say next. In the years to come the frequency of these talks increased to an unimaginable levels.
          It was like she used to watch over us and it was difficult to enjoy in such a weird atmosphere. But anyway we managed ourselves to have fun time together. The other day we were just returning from a long play at my aunt(Ganga)'s place to uncle's house. It was like I and Jyothi were left behind in the walk. We started a talk, pretty different from the conversations we used to have before. It was like a discussion about the crushes we had till now. She said that she had no crushes till now, but shared her experiences of being proposed by her classmates that time. I was shocked at the way the students think at her age she was in her eight class. Then she asked about mine.
       I think I was the one who started this way of conversation as I felt I must express my liking towards her. This unusual kind attraction towards her started at Teja's house. It started to grow in me more and more with time. And in Maamuduru I was overwhelmed  by this feeling. I started being possessive and get upset when she used to talk more with my brother who is just months older than her. I thought was behaving weirdly but it was not in my control. I always wanted her too be on my side in all games and just didnt bear if she changes her team to my brother's side in all the games we played.
      Coming to our talk on crushes it was my turn to tell the list. I did the most foolish thing while telling my crushes. I forgot to tell about Shalini one of the girls of B section of my year. She was quite interesting to me a sort of crush due to the fact that she looks like Jyothi(at least those times). So, I mentioned her name first and then mentioned about Jyothi. I also appreciated her behaviour and I liked her the most. But Jyothi said, " But your first crush is Shalini, I am the second one". Then I was ...ooops wrong message conveyed. So, I corrected my self saying that I liked Shalini because she looked like Jyothi. Although, she was not so convinced, I could see that she also liked me.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

The Moments of Love - 5. The summer after my tenth

         The time went so fast in the preparation for the final board exams. I was excited at the same time very nervous when I first entered the exam hall my centre. I was so tensed that I could hear my own heartbeat. As the first language(Telugu)'s paper I question sheet was handed to me I was so relieved to see that I know the answers of most of the questions in it. I was able write my first paper well which boosted more confidence in me. And the next paper II of first language also went pretty well. Then the next day was my nightmare as it was second language which was Hindi. It had been quite difficult in all the exams I attended in my school to accquire a good percentage. I always used to hear a lot for my naive performance in this subject. I was very nevous as the papers were being distributed. As I saw the paper I had a relief sigh and started answering. I was happy as the paper went well but at the same time I was pretty worried that I do lot of spelling mistakes. After then all the other papers went swiftly. After the last paper was done, I felt so light as I was relieved of all the pressures. Then all our classmates met at Vinith's house which was our favourite meeting spot and enjoyed a lot. I must admit that even though the exams may pressurize us before but, after they are finished, the feeling is indescribable.
           As the days passed I getting more and more bored with very frequent visits of representatives of various corporate junior colleges asking of what percentage  I was expecting and whether I would join their college. Then Dadd asked me whether I would like to go to Navuduru to see my grand paa and have some fun too. I was very happy that I would be able to see all my cousins and said yes. My brother's final exams were still about to commence in 1or 2weeks. So, I was to go alone and I had no problem with that as I was quite aquainted with such journeys.
           My grand parents were very pleased to see me. Chanti uncle and aunty  asked me about how did my Board Exams went and I assured them that I would get good percentage.
           Then we went to Palakollu where we had pretty good time with all our cousins. As we were spending our most playful time there, the day of results flushed me. I was nervous all the day thinking about what percentage I would get. Then a call came from my brother announcing my results. To my surprise I got very low marks than I expected. I got 523 out of 600 and I was very disappointed. The second language marks were very low which effected my overall grade. But, my uncle and aunt felt very glad and all my cousins and Jyothi started congradulating.
           Jyothi spotted that I was pretty disappointed. So, she came to me and said," You are really a brilliant student... Hey!! Cheer up... For you that total might seem low to me. But I know for sure what kind of efforts you might have put. So, be happy dear.. "
           I was much relieved and gave a sigh and but I said to myself "How can I show my face to my parents and friends.."
          The next day mom and my brother were to reach Navuduru. So, I and Jyothi along with Teja, Guna, Jyoshna and Sai (Jyothi's brother) started and reached home by night. I was pretty worried as I have to face my angry mom after those results tomorrow.
          The next day morning I was taking bath and came to my little cousins shouting about their aunt viz my mom's arrival. Then I ran to recieve in towel as I was so out of my mind worrying about her reaction. Then, I saw my mom with my bro standing beside with the luggage. As I received them, my mom was pricking all the way to the house about my 10th results. That was the end of all the fun as I was always pissed off whenever mom talks about those results.
           The same day all our cousins, me and Jyothi started for Mamuduru, a small village which we love most as we had all the childhood memories there. Mom will come after one day as she had to talk to grand paa and grand maa. I felt very relieved and we had fun all the way long as we were surrounded by fields and coconut trees and everything was green. The 4km walk didn’t seem too far as we had fun all along climbing trees for mangoes, running from the farmer after it, eating mirchi bajji in the way, giggling, hopping as we became kids once again. As we reached home grand maa gave a warm hug to each of us and was very happy to see us all together.
           The whole day went well and had nice nap in the corridor under clear skies full of stars, fresh air free from pollution and far from the city life which is too mechanized. Although sleeping for just 6 hours we feel very refreshed and I really love the place a lot.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

The Moments of Love - 4. Me.. When I was in Tenth...

   My tenth class, thinking about it causes me goose bumps. It was like everyone was teaching to me about how important that year was for me or any student. The school management had very high expectations on me being the school topper last year. I was flooded with suggestions, expectations, warnings and academics throughout the year.
    Mornings were busy school schedules and monthly exams and evenings with tuition and home works. It was like a marathon race. But, I also had lots of fun with my friends Vinith, Murali, Venkat and Pavan. We haven’t missed any fun in such a busy schedule. But, our top priority was academics always. Most memorable one was our tour to Lord Balaji Temple in Chilkuru on bikes during mid winter. Started from a place near my house which was a rendezvous point for us and time was about 4:30 am and it was biting cold that winter. Then we started and reached temple by 6 am. My body became numb due to the sizzling wind that blew throughout our journey. After visiting the temple we started our return journey by 6:30 am. On the way we had a bike race and it was fun although I didn’t drove one I encouraged our bike’s driver. We had to head back home before the traffic police started their duties otherwise we would be caught due to lack of driving license.
    The tuition in which I studied was in fact responsible for me getting interested in Maths and Science subjects. Sir used to explain each and every lesson in very detailed way. Even cleared doubts how many times we ask him. And would not move to new lesson, unless each and every concept was clear in the previous one. I was very impressed by his way of teaching and respected him a lot. And this was true even with all students in the tuition. As our tuition was started even before the school, we were much ahead in the syllabus when compared to other students in my class. My maths teacher was always mad at our gang ( Me, Vinith, Murali, Venkat and Pavan) as we used to solve in advance all the problems even before he taught it in the class. Everyone used to copy our methods from our books and ignore his method on the board. Then comes the turn of Physics teacher Behra. He was such a stupid that he used to fall for our false appraisals about his teachings as the best one. And whenever he saw me making some nonsense, he used to make me stand up and ask some questions and I used to answer any question he asks.
    I was very studios till I was in my eight. I used talk very less in the class and avoided talk with girls. After coming to ninth I started socializing (means being talkative and communicated with girls). Thanks to Prasanna who was the first girl to talk with in my class as she lived near my house since I was in VII. My girlophobia thing vanished since then and I started to talk with girls. Very soon some became very good friends of mine. But my best buddy was Prasanna. She beared all my nuisance and naiveness. As I started talking with my classmates much late in my schooling, I was quite immature about what to talk what to not. I was very childish in my thoughts and deeds. Prasanna and me used to quarrel and bicker quite often because I used to mess up things quite a lot. And cut our talks even for months long. And Jyothi visited Hyderabad during such period. So, I was not able to introduce her to Prasanna. But, again we used to start talking to each other and this process repeated throughout my interaction with her till tenth.

Friday, July 9, 2010

The Moments of Love - 3. Jyothi you shocked me that summer

     

     After my final exams I was quite nervous about my results. I was very happy when I came to know that I stood first in the class and the Headmistress admired me for my work. My mom felt proud on hearing the admirations from my teachers and Headmistress. I was very happy. My mom accepted to join me in a famous tuition run by Mr. Guruvareddy Sir. Though it was costly my mom managed it for me as she felt I should be provided with the best academic support in every possible way. I had 15 days left before the commencement of the classes in the tuition. Apart from that my dad got a call from my grand pa that he wants to see me. So, my dad booked a ticket for my journey.
      I was very trilled because it will be my first journey alone. And as I reached the station Chanti uncle came to receive me and took home at Navuduru where my grand pa stays. I roughly remember that after 3 or 4 days Janardhan uncle came to visit me and took me along with them to Penugonda ( its Jyothi's town) as they were about to attend a marriage there. I was droped in my Shanthi aunti's (her mom) house and all the elders went to attend the marriage.
     When entered the house she was caught by surprise when she saw me and said," Hey Bobby, When did u come? How are your mom, dad and your brother?" After dinner we had a long chat. She was excited about her VII public exams. She was describing how though were somepapers and I also joined her describing my experience when I wrote my public exam in VII. I asked her what percentage is she expecting and she said that she was expecting 85 above. Among my cousins I am the elder one. And as I being a good student, all tried to beat my marks. She also worked hard to cross my marks in VII. I was able to figure out this from her words. Then elders returned from the marriage and Shanthi aunty was pleased to see me and asked how I was doing in school and home.
     Then aunty and uncle went to bed as they were very tired attending the marriage. It was about 9 I suppose; one of the local channels aired a comedy movie named Hanuman Junction. It was very famous as the most hilarious. She has already seen it once but for me it was for the first time. Usually, I laugh a lot louder than an average person when I come across awesome jokes. Seeing my laughter Jyothi startled and started laughing even though she already saw a super comedy scene in that movie. Aunt also woke up with that laugh. So, I had to control it but I was not able to. The second half after that scene was boring so we turned off the TV and wished each other goodnight went to our respective beds.
     Having spent 2 days there we went to Tanuku were my little cousins Suma and Shiva live. Lavanya was the only girl among my cousins those days. So, she was very dear to everyone in our whole family. It was a police quarters as my uncle worked in police department. Aunty was very pleased to see both of us as it was after a long time that we met them. There we spent about 3 days when one of the days and I had good time pass of playing cricket with local boys. I used bet some money and I used to lose my money as always my team was lost. Then along with my little cousins Lavanya and Shiva we both went to Navuduru, the place where grand paa stays.
     I was left with only couple of days as my summer tuitions in were about to begin. So, I asked Chanti uncle to book tickets for me to Hyderabad. He said that he would be accompanying me and planned to travel by bus. So, we were about to head to Palakollu where my Janardhan uncle and his family lives. Then suddenly Jyothi asks uncle that she would come with us to bid me a send off. Uncle told her he would definitely take her if she won't cry demanding to take her with us to Hyderabad. She agreed to it so we left to Palakollu. As e reached home I felt very happy as usually visit them after one year and they were also pleased by our visit. 
    Jyothi and me along with other cousins had lots of fun there playing around in a ground nearby. On the day we were about to leave, uncle bought two tickets for the bus journey. Then suddenly Jyothi starts to cry and demands uncle to her with us. I was shocked by her behaviour. She was very rigid in her thought and refused to change her mind. Even Shanta aunty came there to pursue her. But she heard none her words and continued crying. Then Chanti uncle told her that all tickets were booked so, she can’t come with us. Then she asks uncle to take me to check about the availability and she also came with us. Then after uncle took us to the counter I went to the guy who issues tickets about the availability of tickets for booking and as I got a positive response she asked him to book the ticket urgently. Uncle called her mother and she also accepted at last. 
    I was a sort of happy but feared what mother would say if I bring her with me. Then we took the bus and we both got the seats beside each other and my uncle was seated in the last row alone. We had long talks about class lives and also about our friends. Then we had a nice nap and reached Hyderabad by morning. As we reached home mom was caught by surprise on seeing her. She even tried to scold me to letting her to come with me but I escaped from her saying that I have to meet my friends to know about my new tuition schedule.
    My tuition time was 5 in the morning and it is the most horrible time table I ever had. I had to get up by 4 am and rush after getting fresh because even if the students were late by one min Sir would punish us. After reaching home I took rest and Venkatesh uncle who live with us Hyderabad thought of taking her to various places here as it was her first visit. I was not able to accompany her as I was busy with my home works. On the day they ( Jyothi and Chanti uncle) were about to leave Venkatesh uncle was about to take her to Imax and Birla Temple. I was free this time so felt very happy to be in her company. We went to IMAX first and it was very famous (it was opened recently those days) for its beauty. It had multiplex theatres, shopping places, food courts and gamming parlour also. Then uncle took us to the gamming parlour where I played some video games. Then we both played a game together which was to knock as many toy crocs as possible and we had lots of fun. Then spent some time there and headed to Birla Temple. 
    It is the first temple that we both visited together. We had to hurry she had to pack her things for the journey that day. So, we went to the temple in great hurry and after visiting Lord Venkateshwara, had returned home. Journey with her, spending time with her and visiting temple with her, it was like a dream. After giving so many happy moments she left Hyderabad. Even though the visit was accidental, that year was made one of the most memorable ones by her visit.
    The next year’s summer was about to become the most impactful one in my life.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

The Moments of Love - 2. My Childhood Memories of Jyothi


          
           Although my visits to my daad's village was not so exciting as when I visit my mom's, I and my brother also used to have fun playing with my cousins Teja and Guna and also with Jyothi. I can still recollect some sweet moments of those days. She liked to play with me and we were always together. I always wanted to be with Jyothi and envied anyone who played with her. My brother always used to complain mom, “Mummy!! Jyothi always plays with brother... Tell her to play with me also...." Then, we all three used to play together ( Teja, Guna, Jyoshna, Ramya were still very small ).

            We used to roam in the paddy fields, play in the pond and also used to play many games. Gradually, other cousins also joined us as they grew. And I can still remember, Jyothi used to cry alot, " I would also go along with Bobby....", when were about to leave the village. I was always caught by surprise on watching her crying.
             The photograph in the right side was taken when my grand paa visited my daad's village for my uncle's marriage.  Me and Jyothi are in red dresses along with my cousin in the middle and ofcourse my grand paa is standing behind us.
             When I was in fifth or sixth cannot recollect correctly, my grand paa and grand maa came to Hyderabad on the start of summer vacation. It was abig surprise to me. Also Baala and Harish accompanied him. I enjoyed a lot with grandparents and my cousins as my grand paa used to take us to movies, parks, museums and many such places. Even though I already visited them with my parents, I used to go with my grandparents and had lots of fun. Then my parents, grandparents , me and my brother along with Baala and Harish visited my daad's village that year together. It was like fun was doubled as all cousins and cross cousins joined us. I do regret for not having a habit of maintaining a personal dairy as I would have had my book of sweet memories which I can go through any time.
               The coming parts include the summers I have spent with her from the one after the completion my ninth class till now.

Friday, June 25, 2010

The Moments of Love - 1. My Childhood

Hi friends... These postings contain the loveliest moments of my life.... I have included my cute and joyful childhood, the sweetest moments of my teenage and how I fell in love.
 I dedicate it to my love, Jyothi.

                 I can still recollect the days of my childhood reminding me of my granfather's words " Bobby you were born here in this town and those were the most precious moments of my life. " He is the father my mother and he always says " You were born here so this is your native place dont say that small village of your grandfather as your native place...". And I used to nodd my head possitively and say " Grand pa, I like u very much" with a innocent smile, which always made my grand father to take me into his arms for a warm hug.
                 I cannot forget the summers I used to spend in that town with my brother, Jagan, (cross) cousins Bala and Harish. Our mornings were spent at banks of river Naagavali where we used to swim and have a nice refreshing bath. My grand paa used to take me with him to the hospital where he used to work as a compounder(sort of male nurse). Though going to hospital was boring, my grand pa always took care that I was kept entertained by talking about many interesting thing like what kind of toys he would buy for me in the way to home and which movie he would take me today. I used to like him too much and thought that I can never like any one like I liked him which was proven wrong in the future.
                   Mom used to scold me once everyday saying " Why do you eat such horrible things outside with your grand paa and neglect the dinner?". As usual my grand paa used to come to my rescue in time and say, " Dont say a word to my grand son".
                   During nights he used to take me in him arms and used to sing songs he composed for me which slipped me into a nice tight sleep.
                   And the most painful period for me was when we had to return to Hyderabad. My father was posted as constable in Hyderabad after his training. So, we stay there and my brother and me both did our schooling and Inter there.
                   When we had to leave to Hyderabad I used to weep a lot and say " I would stay with my grand paa and join a school here." I used to grab his hand and say that I would leave grand paa and grand paa also used to ask my parents to leave me there and he would sponsor me for my education. But my parents used to deny the request and my mom always spoke these words, “I would like my kids to stay with me only and I cannot stay without seeing them for such a long time."
                     The send off was full of tears and night of the journey to Hyderabad was always filled of the memories of my days in my grand paa's town Srikakulam.
                     The memories of my child hood were filled with the moments I spent with very vague memories related to my father's village.
                     Whenever we visited there my grandfather used to greet me, "Hello my son. How are u?" I was not much acquainted with him so used to nod my head silently. All my uncles and aunties liked me very much.
                     One cute little girl whose always took my attention with two pony tails and with a blush on her face; she was none other than Jyothi.